Leslie whilst talking about an old Beau said to me that apparently if you write things down - in terms of wanted objectives for the future there is in fact a statistically significant % jump in terms of that actual thing coming off.
This she recalled whilst saying that she came across said beau's "list of things what I want to achieve and when" one, and found it most bizarre.
But, in the hope that this statistical significance malarkey may lead to something, here goes.
At the end of the MBA, which I have barely mentioned (I have an MBA. I graduate proper-like in June. I'll talk some other time about its various meanings in more detail some other time) I talked with Stephen Regan, a very grumpy but smart Economics lecturer with whom I had an... interesting (ie: bristly) relationship about how to continue studying Economics once the MBA had finished.
Cranfield University school Of management is blessed with an exceptional Economics dept. not really from a research p.o.v.- which is a shame in a way, but somehow they've managed to gather together exceptionally gifted teachers. The aforementioned Stephen Regan, Sean Rickard, John Glenn and Joe Nellis. All idiosyncratic and amusing in their own ways (either purposefully or otherwise). But the point being - they all had enormous, vital enthusiasm which was and is entirely infectious.
Anyway. Given my background with anything to do with maths, the chances are I was going to loathe Economics. Instead, it was presented as a lovely, organic, slightly (ie: very) geeky system of levers in which where one is pulled, another acts way further down the line - it's very architectural in that sense and so it appeals to my spatial awareness type of thinking. Quite apart from the fact that no one really knows anything. It's all conjecture - sure, you can do the maths but.. now i forget (you see how bad my memory is), I'll have to look it up but I think it was Keynes who pointed out that the great unknowable is the way the public can sway economies through reaction to external stimuli. He said it in a far groovier sentence than that, I'm sure.
So my point is it's fair to just sit there and argue the toss for hours. Which I love, obviously. If it wasn't for the maths, Economics would be 100% the subject for me. As it is, it's 65% the subject for me. But I'm determined to keep going with it.
Hence my question to Stephen - did he know of any courses in London or evening lecture series run by the LSE or... anything? He said in all earnestness, "Yes - you go and do the Economics and Social Policy degree at Birkbeck for 4 years, part time, the first 2 years'll be a breeze, you've donme it all already, then you go to work in Geneva".
Cough, splutter... Stephen? I don't think you get this. I've just given up 2 years of my life nearly breaking myself in to small pieces in the stupid belief that I could stop myself from getting bored at work. Now you're saying give up another 4 years????
And so I scratched my head and walked away. Then I continued scratching my head. Then I went and looked up the course. Then I mailed them. Then i became pregnant and thought - oh bugger.
But then I though, well - I don't do it this year but what does that mean? It's 2 nights a week, apparently. At present, to be honest, I don't know what it all means but there's a little voice continually playing out saying "You know you could do this - if the first 2 years are a piece of piss you could even miss lectures and explain it to the guys at college". Everything in my job suggests a more European way of thinking, and why the hell not have an objective. For once in my life.
So here's the deal - the idea is at present to start the degree next year, in September. And see how it goes. not put deep, nasty amounts of pressure on myself - just see how it goes. the whole Geneva bit sounds interesting but then so do many other things and even if Geneva wasn't the final destination, who knows what it could be.
So there you are. I've written it down now. Who knows, it might happen.
Going to Doc's in a moment. nothing particularly unusual going on, however.
